The Inner Life
THE HERALD OF THE NEW AGE | FEBRUARY 1935
I have been trying to put this into practice and to trust my Inner Self.
During the past few months there has come to me a fuller consciousness of this Inner Self. I cannot explain very well in words. It is a feeling, a knowing, a consciousness of reserve power, of a something that I feel I can trust implicitly in everything. It leads me always to do what is best. It is a consciousness of strength, of love, of wisdom. No, I cannot explain. I have but multiplied words without saying what I want to express. But if you have had the experience you will understand.
I feel it always. And if I can be in some quiet place, preferably at church before meeting, when everything is still and the pipe-organ is being played, there is delight.
I must tell you an experience I had last Summer, one Sunday in August. I had been at a family reunion and was returning on the street-car. Across from me sat a man whom I had known from childhood; I do not call him friend.
He began in fun, and afterwards in earnest, to urge me to enter into some things that would calls pleasure. I did not know before that he was immoral. My soul revolted. I thought of that life in contrast with the life I was trying to lead, and my whole being went up to the Supreme. How beautiful and attractive a life of purity, love and service seemed to me then!
I then and there gave my whole self into the hands of the Great Father, so that His Life and Love could dwell in me always; and I resolved to devote my life to the highest.
I was not talking but was quite still, when suddenly the car was filled with a white light! I had never seen anything as white as this light—not even snow. I felt waves of purity, peace and love go all through me, and I seemed to feel heavenly beings crowding close, assuring me of their love and protection; that they were rejoiced I had made this decision, and that they would stand by me.
I had made this decision many times before, but this time it was different.
It was not long after this that I began to feel this inner consciousness. Now there is never a doubt. I feel just as sure as
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